JAMIE WATSON
On the first date, you kissed
that theatrical drama club girl beneath the canopy of your mother’s swing set
in a way she never thought she would let herself be kissed by a man with hair
on his face, a man who looked like a skinny lumberjack and could shred his
guitar like love letters from a disembodied youth.
Her youth didn't occur to you
that night, or any night.
Lying on your back under a
bed of hazy Arizona starlight, she was fifteen and you were about to turn
twenty, and in the moment that seemed all right because she was smart enough to
know she loved you.
So when she told you, she didn't want to kiss that way anymore, with the slippery slope of your mouth invading
hers, you held her chin in your hand and turned her about like a plump piece of
fruit and told her she was cute.
When she told you, at fifteen
years old, that sex was disgusting, you took it as a challenge, because every
boy loves a challenge.
You were fine with her
kissing other girls.
I mean what’s a girl to a
girl, when she has a top score guitar hero to guard the closet door and make
sure nothing gets in? Or out?
You tried your best to keep
her protected, you tried so hard to make your motives go undetected for her
sake because if you ever found the guy that did what you wanted to do with her,
you’d kill him.
And what a sad situation it
was for you, when she started to fill things in.
How she ripped into you, how
bad it must have hurt when she got on top and kissed you the way you kissed her
the way she kissed those other girls.
Poor thing.
How dare she raise questions
when all she needs to know are the bumby bits of your body,
how dare she sail her vessel with ideas instead of sinking into your bedsheets,
how dare she skim her pocket stones when all you really want is to bone, how
dare a girl love herself more than she loved your cock?
You poor, poor boy.
You had to be the judge, and
the defendant.
You had to learn how to put
up a fight and be independent because she was so manipulative.
She only looked like a little
girl, she told you she wanted it.
How dare she lie for your
sake?
Now she creates her own warmth
at night in her bed. She can take off her dick when she needs to think with her
head and she has girls spinning to know her name so they know what to say when
they reach the edge of an uncovered tenderness, of real bouts of laughter that
start from the inside out, of freshness and favors.
Of sun-buttered kisses that
promise more than just an orgasm.
I hope that you fall in love
with more than just your reflection,
I hope the girl who hops
stages with you doesn't need your protection,
I hope you can peel away your
armor and stop trying to be a knight because someday, you’re going to have to
learn,
Girls
don’t need your permission to be all right.
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